POWER TANGER

melbourne

2010-10-26T17:08:00.001-07:00

hello people.
i'm back from melbourne.
kinda like that place.

i still prefer nature than shopping !
cant stand shopping pls.

yawns.
suddenly feel like blogging.
bye

2010-09-08T06:38:00.001-07:00

work' been quite good recently.
maybe its bcos grace' back.
so i dont have to do dr.brian's work.

so i'm doing Dr.li's work now.
& doing cashering as well.

everything going on well.
always proud of myself :)

thou i work fast, but i still make a little bit of small mistakes here & there.
inevitable.

love doing Dr.li's work la.
he's super nice & good tempered.
and he will help out with our work.

he will say things like,
" okay its nurses day tml, everyone dont have to work tml, i will open clinic tml and do all the admission & discharges "

thou we know he's joking, but its the thought that counts right.

well, happy with my current state.

for "you" who said the new girl will be better than me when the new girl havent even started work yet, i'm sure your're dumbfonded now :)

2010-08-23T06:10:00.000-07:00

Took over Dr. Li's reporting.
gotta type all his medical reports from now on.
sians.

do cashering today also.
super stressed la !
must make sure i must count the money correctly.

gotta take care of 2 doctors from now.
gotta do all the stuffs for dr brian, and help out with dr li's workload,plus reporting.
very sian.

well, if you show other pple that you're coping well,
you're telling pple " give me more job ".
thats why you're pushing all these jobs to me who havent even been confirmed !

so tired after work everyday.
think i'm too stressed up that baby see says i scream in my dreams, suddenly sat up in the night and talk to myself abt work. and it happens for a couple of times lor.

die la. like kenna possessed.

i shall act blur and stupid from now on to prevent pple from pushing their work to me.

but still, very satisfied with my working abilities :)

2010-08-11T06:05:00.000-07:00

hmmm.

i survived day 1 and day 2 !
well, grace went on leave so i'm taking over her.
can see that dr brian is really being tolerant towards me.

he nv get angry when i make him see so many patients,
he nv get angry when i make him go for lunch at sucha late hour,
he nv get angry when i make ward rounds with him like some blur cock.
can see that he's trying to slow down his speed to accomodate to my speed.

well, thanks dr brian for your effort !

i'm trying hard, i really am.
its never easy to handle dr brian's workload.

from making ward rounds to doing admission to doing discharges to doing operation.
even answering phonecalls is not easy.

i hate it when i have like 2 discharges on my hand and "that irritating person" keeps transferring phone call to me ! 3 lines at a go at times ! cannot take it. somemore its so many weird phonecall who ask me to do weird things. sigh.

hate it when those pple who call up with those werid accents that i really cannot understand. so angry until i told them " can you speak in english PLSSSSSSSS "

yawns.

but still i think i'm improving. still a bit of mistakes here and there thou.
will improve more :)

jiayou ah tang ;)

2010-08-05T06:18:00.000-07:00

yo !
heeeee :)

suddenly, i'm missing alot of pple.

i miss elsusa, jane peh, catherine hu meow meow, carmen gold carmen !
i miss angnes tan mei qjng, tt irritating zhang yi jin !
i miss ang ku kueh, cuyanie, ah beee !

i miss talking rubbish with janey & elsusa !
i miss talking to angnes !
i miss quarelling with zhang yijin !

i'm even missing baby see la !

its gotta be our one year anniversary soon !
like, on national day ??!!
so fast la. hee.

heeeeeee :)
so happy :)))

anyways, going to scrub for op tml at 8am !!
sian la, gotta wake up early !
worst still, the op will only last for 15-30mins ~
ma de ~

gotta bring the new girl to op to teach her stuffs also.
ma de ji dan gao ~
i'm so blur already, still want me to teach others.
shen jing bing you mao bing ~
somemore her own preceptor wouldnt do things that i teach her !

cos i will write all the whatever forms for the doctor i'm attached to.
like writing consent, admission form, operation notes, table code bla bla bla.
but her preceptor will never do this !!!

haiya, and i hate her preceptor.
irritaing la.
luckily she's leaving ;)

anyone wanna join our clinic ?
elsusa? cuyan ? jane?
i'm looking forward to one day when you all join this clinic :)
it would be damn fun if i can work with you all.

heee. i'm happy for today.

but stress cos next week is coming!
grace is going on leave soon and i'll be alone !!!
:(

2010-08-02T05:03:00.001-07:00

ah tang is feeling abit depressed today.
hmmm.

find it so hard to smile at times.
yet i have to smile in front of pple,
and show them " hey i'm still smiling which means i'm fine"

sigh, unpredicatable.

but thank god i went to OT for all the cases.
i can hide all my emotion when masked up.

sometimes i think i'm really damn blur and stupid.
like taking the wrong side of train???

sigh, have a good sleep tonight and continue smiling.
:) smile smile smile.
keep it up.
hold on.
never give up.

2010-07-30T06:03:00.000-07:00

ah tang is working hard now.
so i've got no time to update.
felt so tired after work everyday.

esp yesterday when i went to operating theatre for 4 cases !!
totally sian half when sister ask me to go for all 4 cases.
but nvm, i can take it.

dont worry be happy :)

" A sense of humour is wonderful ; able to laugh at the world will see you thru many hard times "

ok?

to nicole & cuyanie : stop complaining abt your life or yourself bcos its not gotta change anything. there's no way you change your personalities. afterall having a good heart is more impt than any other things. and i i believe HAO REN YOU HAO BAO. it's not wrong be too hardworking that you got bulllied by pple, your good working attitude will bring you somewhere someday. dont change yourself for others.

ok?

haiya. very sian.
looking forward to xiaoyu wedding tml :)

and my mummy just throw tantrum just now.
bcos of a really small small matter that i dont even know why.
never seen her like tt before.
is it bcos of menopause?
hahaha.

hmmm.

very sian la ok.

byebye

2010-07-05T05:50:00.001-07:00

woohoo !
finally got time to blog !

been going out everday after work ever since i started work.
happy ! :)
bcos i met dearies on tuesday,
met gwen for dinner on friday,
met agnes & yijin on saturday,
dinner with my family and baby see's family on sunday,
and meet baby see almost everyday :)

will be meeting nyp gang soon,
hopefully this thurs. :)

well, i guess i'm abit too stressed up at work.
maybe bcos i wanna learn things fast.
i wanna be competent real soon.

thou grace' really fierce, but i'm used to her being fierce ever since student time.
so it doesnt really nother me when she scold me.

i'm just depressed when i keep making mistakes.
eg, in my mind, i wanna take medication A, but my hand reach out for medication B !

and now i know, i'm lack of sleep.
zzzz.

ah tang cannot perform when she's tired.
been going out everyday that i had to sacrifice my sleep.

anyways, been going into the OT.
well, it just takes time.
felt more comfortable the next few times i go.

got a chance to scrub today but i've got to go off early.
AIYO wasted.

jia you ah tang :):)

2010-06-26T22:47:00.000-07:00

Just tidied up my stuffs.
look thru all my old photos.
so naive and so happy :)

Hahah, not these pics but those neoprints and all.
below are from my 2yrs old hp.

angnes !

that was agnes 20th or 21th bday i think.

i remember they brought mac for me !

Hee, dearies, remember our plot?

funny la.

WO TOU HENG TONG ! :)

Her first time clubbing i think.

my 20th bday !

2010-06-25T21:48:00.000-07:00

wah, why am i so tired this few days.

maybe i wanna have fun in my last few days of break.

went for christopher & agnes solemnisation last week.

its at swissotel merchant court, and its by the poolside.

kinda coool but many pple sharing the place. -_-

miss PT ( forget her name ), likman, christopher.

Zhong kai & meifang

Saying "YES I DO" :):)

Went to liang court for coffee after that.

sometimes, listening to the doctors complaining abt nurses makes me feel that some nurses are really stupid.

but i'm not :)

Met up with elsusa & ong li dan to mena agency on thurs.

then for "coffee" at some chinese restaraunt. Hhaha.

Went to tiong bahru to collect uniform with elsusa on fri.

then to orchard for shopping of my office wear.

and i found BYSI ! love it :)

left to meet baby see after that.

went to buy his camera and test out :)

nikon D700 :)

and his old nikon belongs to me now :)

woohoo :)

CIAOS !!

2010-06-23T02:14:00.000-07:00

yawns.
i'm bored.

anyways, got a job at orthopedics associates.
but pay was not as good as i thought.
but nvm, i kinda like tt clinic plus grace is working there too.
get to scrub for cases too, why not?

most imptly, baby see supports me !
thanks alot baby see ! :)

had a big quarrel over this job thingy.
thanks his parents for helping me talk to him regarding this.

i'm happy now :)

2010-06-20T07:18:00.000-07:00

i think i'm very weird.
i get really angry easily.
i get really happy easily.

weird.

anyways friends, keep yourself free on 4th july.
KIV bbq under my block :)

2010-06-18T05:48:00.000-07:00

ah tang' happy now !
thanks to grace ( huiling ) :):)

going to her clinic for interview on monday.
its a orthopedics clinic where i can get to make rounds with the doctors and scrub case !

hmmm, abit scared but i have to move on !
stop staying in my own comfort zone !

seriously thanks huiling alot.
she called me up and arrange the interview and all for me.

hopefully i will fare well on the interview day.

just came back from my patient's funeral.
well, thou she has passed away, but i made a new friend.
will keep in touch with her daughter, gwen.
she's been a really good employer.

to think of it, i really had my fair share of luck when it comes to working luck.

got promotion really fast when i was in ttsh,
got to work with this really nice family not long after i join mena,
got to work for datuk when i was in mount e.
and now, got to know huiling to get this job.

i should be contented :)

2010-06-17T03:57:00.000-07:00

very stress ah !!!!!!!!

should i apply for NKF?
starting pay is 1950 before CPF, got shift work and no shift allowance.
but can work near my house & specialised in smth.

should i apply for clinic at mount e?
huiling says her clinic needs staff.
but its orthopedics clinic.
needa find out more from her.

seriously dont wanna work for mena anymore !
i just DONT LIKE working as a private nurse.

this stupid seeqy dont want me to work in nkf or govt hosp.
he thinks that the pay is too little and workload is heavy.
he thinks that going to private is the best.

but i dont like private patients !
why is he forcing me??!!

very very stressed up ,
think i'm living my life for other pple.
sigh.
and he doesnt seems to understand.

all but bullshit

2010-06-15T08:22:00.000-07:00

hmmm, my patient had passed away.
after fighting a battle for 2months and 15days.

it was a strange feeling.
i didnt cry.
maybe i'm too used to death when i was in the ward last time.

its too sudden.

but i knew i did my best.
cpr cpr cpr.
used up all my strength, sweat like mad.
but still, it doesnt help.

to tell the truth, this is the 2nd time i did CPR on real person.
if only i've a AED & iv Adrenaline with me.
perhaps i can save her.

sigh.
its not easy.

hope gwen will be fine.

2010-06-13T06:01:00.000-07:00

i'm bored.

its sunday today.

and its monday tml again.

why does it have to come so fast.

this is so cool.

Deepa wedding

2010-06-07T07:23:00.000-07:00

Went to Deepa's wedding at SKA ytd.
hmmm, kinda weird to see the 5C pple,
ex staff somemore !!!

but i'm glad i'm out of 5C,
or rather, out of this hospital.
everyone seems to be working to their limit,
and the hospital' still pushing them to work more.

Hahaha, CUTE GRACE !!

ANG KU KUEY :)

Beauty Mode :)

AH BEE :)

:):):)

Someone just appear inside the photo taking lor !

Congrats to deepa :)

the forever so pretty ranjeeta :)

Geeta :)

The rabbit teeth gang cum twins !!

hahaha

so funny la. we're all trying very hard to avoid sister loon.

then she still managed to find us.

and still calling me & cuyan "twins" and "meinu"

cannot take it.

Funny mas !

Just came back from airport.

baby see's parent going to korea !

shiok !

and my mummy' is finally coming back from US this thurs.

i miss her la !

been mummy-less for 10 over days le.

very very tired nowadays.

because i'm working real hard.

wanna save 10K by end of this year.

abit hard cos will be going travelling.

vietnam/hong kong this july,

another one in november.

woohoo !

money money come come !

yo

2010-06-02T07:39:00.001-07:00

yawns.
so tired !

its been a tiring week for me.
and i think i'm gotta lead this kinda life.
at least for the next 6months.
sigh.

baby see on afternoon shift almost everyday.
which means 4pm to 12mn.
and i'm working 9am to 7pm daily.
like that how to meet ?!

so he will come to my house to sleep on someday.
and i will go to his house on someday.
so i'm left with 5hrs of sleep everyday.

very tired la.

went back to nurse my pt.
she's getting more and more ill.
on NGT feeding now.
gotta insert for her whenever its due.
dots.
i hate insertng NGT the most la.
you can ask me to do anth but insert NGT.
bcos i think i'm very lousy in inserting.

aiyoyoyoy.

i'm very tired
:(

2010-05-30T03:18:00.000-07:00

reading blogs now.

people comes and go.

well well..

life' like that isnt it.

all i could say is, CHEER UP MY FRIENDS !

i frown alot, i get upset easily, i cry easily.

but most imptly, i pick up easily.

SELF RECOVERY !

dont expect anyone to console you or make you happy.

bcos no matter what they do, is useless.

only you yourself can make you smile.

true that the person who makes you upset is the one who can make you smile again.

but the key is yourself !!!!!!!!!

.........................................................................................................

ok back to normal.

haha.

jobless for the past one week.

my patient & my cousin was hospitalised on the same day !

gosh !

my patient had a VF !

my cutie little cousin enya was diagnosed with kawasaki disease !

been visiting enya at kkh.

realised i still love working in the ward.

sigh.

sigh. sigh.

very unhappy recently.

but how?

life goes on.

2010-05-14T06:41:00.000-07:00

YO pple.

here's money money for MENA agency.

this mena agency sounds really mena but their nurses will be allocated to parkway health.

Gleneagles Hospital ; Mount Elizabeth Hospital ; East Shore Hospital

1) Hospital Floor Duty

Means work in hospital like their staff nurse.

impt ! agency cannot give IV !!!

( dont know good or bad )

2 ) Private Nursing In Hospital

Its one to one nursing in hospital.

Main responsibilities : Take care of ONE patient like a maid lo, but NO NEED to give IV, needa co-sign PO Medicine with their nurses.

Sounds easy but this may include patients with trachy, bipap bla bla.

3 ) Home Private Nursing

One to One nursing at the patients home

( can wear home clothes there )

Mainly, act like a maid too ! hahah

but good bcos some families have their own maid, so got pple to help you.

There's 2 types of payment.

one type is cash payment, another one is transfer straight to bank.

commision for agency is 5% of each transaction.

Needa pay abt $100 ++ to agency for insurance, uniform & all.

thou its alot, but you can earn it back in just one day :)

Alot of money but no prospect.

2010-05-11T06:31:00.000-07:00

when you're feeling unhappy,
you wish that someone will be by your side.

you think of your boyfriend, your boyfriend is working.
you think of you family, they're overseas.
you think of your friends, they're busy.

so whats next ?

cry alone in the room.
i dont know abt others, but thats how i vent.

talk to my patient's family re : LIFE.
we said, those who's happy with their life would be afraid of death.
bcos they dont want their happiness to end.

as for those who're suffering throughout their entire life, they pray that god would take them away as early as possible.
bcos death is the answer to all problem & sufferings.

as for me, i hope i will only live till 60.
my life isnt that wonderful for me to want to live longer.

and trust me, my life sucks.
i cry often, but i recover fast.

2010-05-05T07:09:00.000-07:00

I MISS DEARIES !!
esp in hk.
when i see mango bing, i think of the time when we first ate it
when i see so many mask ( wo de mei ren ri ji ), i think of us buying it
when i see the disney character, i know you all will be as crazy as me.

promise promise, i will try to meetup soon.
SQY in A&E now = shift work !
woohoo, can meet you all le :)

I MISS AGNES & YIJIN too !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
miss the crazy times
miss singing.
miss bickering

I MISS CUYAN, GRACE, JOYCE !!!!
if only you guys are around to work with me :(

2010-04-24T00:10:00.000-07:00

http://www.love-collects.blogspot.com

give it a read, its nice & sweet :)

busy working these few days.

really tired after work everyday.

earning more & more money.

1K more than my previous pay.

when you're willing to work hard,

you will really earn more.

( applicable only to private, not govt hosp :p )

but how, no time to spend.

sigh.

life' like that.

when you're broke, you complained of not having money.

when you're loaded, you complained of not having ENOUGH money.

when you're rich, you complained of not having time to spend it.

well, i'm really tired.

2010-04-10T19:32:00.000-07:00

i'm back :)
hahaha

been busy working for the past few days.
haha. seems like i've been saying that in every post.
but this week is really busy working.

i'm working from mon to fri,
10am to 6pm.
will go out after work everyday.
and be super exhausted when i reach home.
thus no time for my mickey :(

been nursing this patient for a week plus already.
and she still requested for me to go back next week.
hahaha happy :)

the only good thing about been a agency nurse is that,
i get more appreciation from my patients.
so far, i already had 3 patients who asked me back.
its nice to know :)

patients in the govt hosp appreciates sometimes.
and definately, it makes me happier.
its the small little " THANK YOU MISSY", followed by a kiss on your hands.
its sweet you know :)

whereas patients in the private sector are more direct.
they write in, buy expensive food for you, request for you again next time.
material satisfaction.

hmmm.

but anyways, i love all my patients.
and i always know i have this TLC.
tender loving care.

i dont care whether my colleague sees it,
or my mummy sees it or baby see.
bcos i know my patient knows it.

anyways anyways.
to this emo girl :

i think i understand you.

there're times when you cant help but think if you should be born here.
there're times when you feel tt death can solve all these problems.
there're days when things get really bad and you just cry alone in the night.
for instance, you felt so tired after a day of work, mummy & daddy reprimanded you when you reached home. all you want is some form of comfort from them, they need not say all these things.

you feel that you're alone.
nobody loves you.
you're not perfect.
you're ugly, fat, stupid !

but thats purely your own thinking.

you had lots of friends, maybe you need a partner.
but imagine if you rush into this, and you get someone really out to hurt you.
what would have happen to you?
guys out there are not like those prince charming you see in your dramas.
just take your time, you still young anyway.

you're not ugly, in fact i think you're prettier than any models out there.
you think they're really pretty?
wait till they removed their makeup.
you look good even without makeup, of cos you will look even better with makeup.
eventually, a man wants a women whom look good every morning when he wakes up.
a woman can't be putting on makeup when she sleeps right.

you're exercising right.
so being fat is not a problem anymore.
just control your diet and exercise.
( use your willpower, never eat at night no matter how hungry you are )

as for your thinking of your parents not loving you.
you're wrong, they loves you.
yes they might love you sibling more.
so what? live your own life then.
dont always do things to prove to them that you're better.
bcos no matter what you do, you're always no.2
just be filial to them and they will understand it someday.

lastly, nobody is perfect.
i think you know that.

done.
although i'm always emo-ing myself.
but i always pick myself up fast.
its your own willpower.
dont ever expect anyone to help you.

2010-04-05T17:46:00.000-07:00

phew.
so tired.
no time for anything else.
squeezing in time whenever i can.

anw, busy earning money this few days.
damn tired i swear.
yet there's still so many things to tend to.

v tired.

2010-03-30T17:35:00.000-07:00

bla bla bla.
so stressssssssssssssssss

anyone for any intro for jobs?
just want a part time job for 3weeks.
will be going hk this end of april.
will find a full time job when i'm back.

dont know why i'm so stress up.
maybe bcos of my mummy.
she keeps asking me to find a job and give her allowance.
aiyo. this mummy is not encouraging at all lo!

maybe bcos of baby see.
he keep calling me "wu ye you ming" now.
idiot.

maybe bcos of baby see's parents.
dont want them to think that i'm slacking around.
or spending baby see money.

hmmm. today' my last day doing the dressing.
feel that there's no need for me to do it.
so i taught the maid and let her do it.

and i dont feel like working for this agency already.
its kinda scary.
fear of the unknown.
my heart will always race when i received a call from them.

happy when i got a call from them bcos i got another $160 to my pocket.
unhappy when i got a call bcos i will feel damn tired n depressed.

happy when i've got no call bcos i can rest.
unhappy when i've got no call bcos it means no money.

how sian is it.
sigh.
stress stress.

2010-03-24T18:00:00.000-07:00

helllooo.
long time no see. haha
been working for the past few days.

anyway, to those to doesnt know.
i'm working as a private nurse now.
for parkway.
normally i would go to gleneagles/mount elizabeth.

my working hours are 8am to 8pm.
normally they will either inform me the day/night before, or on the day itself.
so i cant confirm with you when i'm free to go out you see.

but friendsssss, if you wanna date me out,
just try to make it on thurs/fri.
cos i tend to slacken abit towards the weekend.
and its tiring to work for 12hrs everyday.
phew.

and trust me, i'm drained out now.
dont feel like working also !
i even switch my phone to silent mode.
dont wish to receive any call from the agency.

been nursing this datuk for the past few days.
he's the foreign minister of msia la.
but he's a super nice guy la.
so happy that he requested for me to come back.

and doing another part time job in the morning now.
at 630am !
but i get to earn $65 for just doing a dressing.
rich pple just got lots of money to spend.

aiya. means i work from 630 am to 8pm.
super tired.
felt so depressed and low after work.

dont know why
both are super nice patients.
but i'm just tired

tired tired tired.
sians.

2010-03-17T19:48:00.000-07:00

hmmm.
i guess i just need a rest after every 2 days of work.
esp nursing such irritating pt.

aiyoyo,
cant stand her.

anyways, meeting nyp pple later.
lol.
like 100years nv see them already !
the last time tt we actually meetup was during angelyn bday,
which was like 2yrs ago ??!!!
gosh.

but will be meeting them for a while.
then will meet baby see.
then home for steamboat !

weeettt :)

2010-03-16T06:46:00.000-07:00

work work work.
yawns.

today's case was good.
super nice old ah ma and nice family.
she sleeps most of the time, so i also follow her and sleep !
shiok !

and i always love mount E.
esp their cafeteria.
only 2 dollars, for a drink, rice with dish and soup !
super cheap and nice also.

argh.
but i'm going to nurse another fussy pt tml.
wish me good luck.
hah.

anyways, met up with cuyanie and gracie ytd.
its always nice seeing friends tt you havent seen for long.
esp you dearest friends !
love ya a :)

2010-03-14T22:13:00.000-07:00

yawn.

supposed to have a one day job today.
but they cancelled it last min.
sians.
if not it would be quite easy to nurse.
on iv dopamine, heee. easy to ttsh pple.

p.s only ttsh run iv dopamine in general wards.
other hosp will send it to HD.
proud :)

anyway, still jobless.
and useless.
gotta depend on baby see for everything.

and he got me a new netbook !
lenovo idea pad ! mickey one somemore !
heeee.

can finally bring out a laptop now.
:)

ok, cont to emo..

2010-03-12T21:41:00.000-08:00

my lovely wallpaper :)

still jobless.

baaaaaa.

trying (very) hard to save money.

yet unable to resist the temptation of lenovo mickey mouse lappy.

going IT fair cm again.

we shall see :)

2010-03-10T00:06:00.000-08:00

phew.

told the agency that i wouldnt be able to rest for the next 2 days.
wanted to take a rest & spent some time with baby see also.
with this kinda working hours, i'm only able to meet babysee for a few hrs.

nursed this VIP patient in another suite today.
and his family sucks.
they treat me entirely like a maid !

kns la.

sigh.
i guess rich pple are just not easy to please.

earning money is not easy ah !
and i think i will cry if i ever see 5C staffs on the streets,
i never used to cherish them until i leave the ward & saw the reality of life.

its not easy.

2010-03-08T06:22:00.001-08:00

i'm tired.
and unhappy.

after working for the pass few days,
i realised that money doesnt comes by easy.
and i'm becoming more and more thrifty.

in the past, a delipotato set( $10) means nothing to me.
and now, a delifrance fruit tart & drink ($5) seems like alot to me.

i should be able to earn 1K by this week.
but its not easy money.

physically, its not tiring at all.
but mentally, i'm drained.

:(

2010-03-05T19:50:00.001-08:00

job was bad.
i totally felt so low at the end of the day.

so what happened to the tangwee who used to work so fast ?
i felt stupid, clumsy and bimbo there.

i felt like a maid too,
however,a highly paid maid.
but there's nth to be happy abt.

i'm a borned workaholic.
i dont like to be a tai tai.

pple are wrong when they say i choose to be with baby see bcos i wanna be a tai tai.
i dont care abt being tai tai.
i hate this life of shaking legs and doing nth at home.

i like the feeling of running around in the ward.
i like the feeling of sweating like mad.
i like the feeling of challenging myself to the max.

i felt good when i finish 101 things in the shortest time.
however, its over.

sigh.

2010-03-04T05:48:00.000-08:00

:'(

weird feeling.
getting emo over here.

i promised myself not to be emo again.
but why am i feeling this way.

jiayou ah tang,
pls buck up.

2010-03-03T23:35:00.000-08:00

hmmm.
got job offer today.
finally got my uniform.
the uniform that looks like a cleaner uniform.

anw, working tml at gleneagles.
serving a VIP patient.
hmmm. abit scared.
but see how it goes ba.

jiayou ah tang :)

2010-03-02T22:57:00.000-08:00

baby t needs to be super understanding in future.
lets work hard for our future.
jiayou :)
maybe a jiayou a day keeps the fear away.

2010-03-01T20:31:00.000-08:00

hmmm.

went to register over at one private nursing agency ytd.
it. was. scary.
everything and everything.

so many things in my mind.
too many that i dont even bother to quarrel with baby s.
i came to realise.
i've yet to accomplished lots of thing,
degree, driving license, braces, travel etc.
why get bothered over minor stuffs ?

i didnt get angry over anything ytd at all.
i accompanied him to the watch shop which i normally dont.
i accompanied him to the electronics shop which i normally dont.
i accompanied him to eat at carls jr even i dont like to eat that.
i comment with him abt pretty girls when i normally pinch him.
i smile when he talk abt his ex gf when i normally kick him.

small little minor things.
little big important things.

however,
fear of the unknown.
to tell the truth, i'm very fearful of my new job.
afterall its completely different from my previous work place.

jiayou ah tang,
its time to move on.
get out of your comfort zone,
be prepared to the unknown ahead.

:)

2010-02-28T08:15:00.000-08:00

BKK Day 1 ( 20 Feb 2010 )

Took an afternoon flight with Thai Airline there.

i still prefer flight with food & drinks :)

Check in to Amari Watergate Hotel.

Thats the good thing abt travelling with parents - five star hotel !

First meal in bkk was the roadside duck noodles which turns out to be quite nice !

Walk along the streets while heading towards 4sided buddlha. Then to Big C for some shopping of cup noodles & alcoholic drinks.

Dinner at this chinese restaraunt which has my fave mango juice - real blended mango without any colouring or flavoring inside ! You can find this mango juice in alexandra village in spore thou.

Lastly, Patpong, Bangkok MENS nightlife.

2010-02-28T08:00:00.000-08:00

everyone is asking me what's next.
everyone is reprimanding me for quitting my job.
everyone is stressing me abt money.
everyone is urging me to get a job STAT.
everyone is going overseas.
everyone is telling to different facts of life.

some is telling me to enjoy while young.
some is telling me to work while young, enjoy when old.

i envy rich pple,
rich pple get good education since young,
they get everything they want.
however i dont want to be rich.
i wanna earn money myself & enjoy all i can.
like what i'm doing now.

i envy outspoken pple.
for the fact that i'm soft spoken.
and i nv know how to express myself.

please.
tell me what to do.
i'm frustrated.

2010-02-28T00:35:00.001-08:00

lemme see if i can remember anything.

20feb - 23feb :

bkk with baby, mummy, bro, sis, aunt, uncle and baby enya.

didnt buy alot of clothes there.
and didnt managed to get anything for my friends.
time was too short la.

but i love bangkok.
like i always do.

hahaha. update on bkk trip when i'm free ba :)

24 feb :
went msia with baby.
watch percy jackson and the lightning thief.
i would greatly recommend you guys to watch.
nice show :)
i even brought a medusa statue in fishville after that.

25 feb :
went back to ttsh to return my uniform, access card& staff card.
thanks to the linen guy for helping me waive the shoe charge :)
went to B4 and look around like crazy for that place to return access card.
lastly, to HR to return my staff card & do a clearance.
saw our phlebo leng & kong on the way there.
they're leaving ttsh too !
welcome to freedom !!

went to mena agency, hoping to look for a job.
but they're lao hei-ing when we reach there. haha

slack around orchard before going home.

26 feb :
went to commonwealth to put up the tiger sticker for baby's car.
hahha. now can identify baby's car easily.

rushed home and we're off to night safari !!
with baby, mummy & sis.
its damn scary la, esp the bats !
tsk tsk tsk.

27 feb :
went to liang court for his fave vietnamese coffee.
then to this jap restaraunt for ramen.
then off to gugu house for dinner & lao hei again.

my cousin' back home after so many years.
its like a family reunion.
really can see the joy on my aunt & uncle face.
heartwarming :)

28feb:
godma came to visit us.
and of cos, last ang bao of the year !
:)

then to aunt house to lao hei again

with my maternal & paternal family.

both is love :)

i guess the only lucky thing that happened to me was my family & relatives.

i love them for who they are.

they're definately not someone great.

but they gave me strength to carry on.

2010-02-28T00:26:00.000-08:00

did i say i'm striving hard now?
to earn more & more money.

i shall get a stable job at any private hosp now,
then part time as a private nurse,
then helped out my sis in data entry.

money money money.
i wanna enjoy like my mother when i'm old.
or rather, start enjoy when i'm young.

japan, europe, egypt, korea, hongkong, new zealand, middle east.
so many places i wanna go.
life' too short.

2010-02-28T00:20:00.000-08:00

yawns

mummy & YAP family going USA.
baby's family going korea.

and i'm still stuck in spore !
how i wish i could travel all year round.
:(

envied my mum la.
she's going to new york/toronto/canada bla bla bla this may
kaoz. i always wonder where alll her leave come from.

nvm. i shall earn more money from now on.
and strive to travel all around the world.
next stop is JAPAN !!!
hope i can make it there !

2010-02-19T06:17:00.000-08:00

browsing thru my photo album...

my irritating baby !

feel like killing him right !

aiyo !

off to bangkok in 12more hrs time !

with baby and my family !

excited !

2010-02-19T01:38:00.000-08:00

last day of work.
v tired.

lotsa dressing.
lotsa IVs.
lotsa discharges.
lotsa NGT
lotsa changing.
lotsa crazy auntie.

phew.
damn tired now.
sian i didnt enjoy my last day.

but its okay.
cos i know 5C loves me :)

got 2 carebear from xiaoyu, hailing, yake.
citigem necklace from the ward.
necklace from sister loon.
necklace from grace & joyce.
farewell card from the ward.
biscuit from mastura.

will definately miss you guys de !

last day was horrible.

did 3 discharges all by myself.
did 3 sacral wound dressing, SUPER SMELLY LA.
gave iv vanco for 4 patients, almost make me confused.
first dose, first dose, first dose.
i give IV until i think my hands are immune to all the antobiotics alr.
irritating relatives asking for update.

aiyo.
i think the first 2 cubicle is like a mini nursing home.
all the big fat ill auntie all there.
do changing until i backache.

but my bed 82 ah ma is really cute.
love her la :)

sigh.

leaving for bkk tml.
no mood to pack.

2010-02-16T20:57:00.001-08:00

wooohooo !

happy new year & valentine day !!

( alittle bit late thou :x)

cny eve was obviously spent with my family & my YAP family :)

but was working on cny eve so was feeling abit tired.

after dinner with YAP family, went to my ah ma house to lao yu sheng.

happy :)

cny/ valentines was obviously spent visiting.

NO VALENTINES WITH BABY SEE.

IRRITATING.

but i dont care also.

i love CNY more than valentines day :)

went for the teochew porridge buffet with baby see family in the evening.

but realised there's no teochew mui that day. sians.

but got sharks fin soup :) love it :)

2nd day was sleeping till late, went to baby see's aunt house.

and then back to my house :)

love my house bcos its totally full !

went back to work on the 3rd day.

first time seeing ranjeeta flaring up.

she's literally shouting to that person bcos that person refused to help.

guess there's really no teamwork in our ward ba.

thats why the nice ranj will get angry.

sigh. nice pple in our ward always get bullied.

and bad pple always get all the rewards.

irritating.

i'm glad that i left the ward :)

and that irritating new UNO who came into the ward on CNY EVE,

instead of wishing us happy new new.

guess what she said to me.

"WHY U NV GREET ME ?"

super irritated by her that day.

no wonder you're single la !

argh ! angry !

phew relax relax.

2 more working day :)

2010-02-09T10:35:00.000-08:00

yawns.
last night already.
and my last night in ward 5C !
well, no feelings also.

so happy to see the night sister just now.
she's making rounds with a smiley face,
and she said " hello girl, happy right, last night already"
this made my day ok :)

its like, i dont know her, she dont know me.
she's not like normal sister who come and say,
" can you pls bun up your hair?"

its the same little gestures that made a difference :)

meetup with janey just now.
dinner at fareast.
brought 2dress for CNY.
jus buy for the sake of buying.
cos my mummy say CNY must wear new clothes.

hmmm, back to emo-ing.

sometimes i had my difficulties too.
its not easy to please everyone.
of course, i place my priorities on a specific person.
and that doesnt mean i dont care.

yawns.

2010-02-01T10:30:00.000-08:00

ARGH.
VERY SLEEPY.
CAN DIE CAN DIE.

last night.
jiayou jiayou.
phew.

anyways, dinner with seeqy & family before my first night.
got a scolding from them for quitting my job.
hmmm. was feeling kinda sad after that.

dinner with dearies & co before my 2nd night.
updating each other.
and i decided to learn driving.
after seeing catherine drive.
she drove us back home and me to work.
she looks so cool while driving la.
thou there are moment where she drove so fast that scares me inside out.
envy envy !

night night, pls end fast !

2010-01-25T19:05:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY SEE SEE :)

he makes me cry,

he makes me shout,

he makes me scold all the vulgarities,

he makes me feel like killing him,

he call me every 3mins at work to irritate me,

he sits in the middle of the road to quarrel with me,

yet the one i love the most :)

2010-01-19T08:06:00.000-08:00

yawns.
i'm bored over here.
see see on EOD call. sian.
just went shopping with janey just now.
we brought heels ! so happy !

tml' the big day !
feeling kinda anxious over it, dont know how to bring the topic to her. i felt so bad abt it. but on the second thought, i didnt own her anything. i'm not bonded to this hosp too.
ARGH !
argh !
how how how !!

sigh, no feel for blogging nowadays.
life so bored.

2010-01-11T07:34:00.000-08:00

BACK TO BLOGGING !
BA !
HEE !

main purpose for blogging is to post my schedule:)

11 jan, monday - leave
12 jan, tuesday - leave
13 jan, wednesday - off
14 jan, thursday - pm
15 jan, friday - nd
16 jan, saturday - nd
17 jan, sunday - sd

18 jan, monday - off
19 jan, tuesday - off
20 jan, wednesday - pm
21 jan, thursday - pm
22 jan, friday - am
23 jan, saturday - am
24 jan, sunday - pm

not disappearing, but just busy with my seeqy.
not forgetting you pple, been following all your blogs & FB all the while.

p.s agnes & yijin
see ya on the 13th ! :)

p.s dearies
i miss our inside jokes :)

p.s cuyan, grace, joyce
i will miss you girls when i leave ttsh :)
and cuyanie, i got good guys to intro you :)