phew.

told the agency that i wouldnt be able to rest for the next 2 days.
wanted to take a rest & spent some time with baby see also.
with this kinda working hours, i'm only able to meet babysee for a few hrs.

nursed this VIP patient in another suite today.
and his family sucks.
they treat me entirely like a maid !

kns la.

sigh.
i guess rich pple are just not easy to please.

earning money is not easy ah !
and i think i will cry if i ever see 5C staffs on the streets,
i never used to cherish them until i leave the ward & saw the reality of life.

its not easy.

i'm tired.
and unhappy.

after working for the pass few days,
i realised that money doesnt comes by easy.
and i'm becoming more and more thrifty.

in the past, a delipotato set( $10) means nothing to me.
and now, a delifrance fruit tart & drink ($5) seems like alot to me.

i should be able to earn 1K by this week.
but its not easy money.

physically, its not tiring at all.
but mentally, i'm drained.

:(

job was bad.
i totally felt so low at the end of the day.

so what happened to the tangwee who used to work so fast ?
i felt stupid, clumsy and bimbo there.

i felt like a maid too,
however,a highly paid maid.
but there's nth to be happy abt.

i'm a borned workaholic.
i dont like to be a tai tai.

pple are wrong when they say i choose to be with baby see bcos i wanna be a tai tai.
i dont care abt being tai tai.
i hate this life of shaking legs and doing nth at home.

i like the feeling of running around in the ward.
i like the feeling of sweating like mad.
i like the feeling of challenging myself to the max.

i felt good when i finish 101 things in the shortest time.
however, its over.

sigh.

:'(

weird feeling.
getting emo over here.

i promised myself not to be emo again.
but why am i feeling this way.

jiayou ah tang,
pls buck up.

hmmm.
got job offer today.
finally got my uniform.
the uniform that looks like a cleaner uniform.

anw, working tml at gleneagles.
serving a VIP patient.
hmmm. abit scared.
but see how it goes ba.

jiayou ah tang :)

baby t needs to be super understanding in future.
lets work hard for our future.
jiayou :)
maybe a jiayou a day keeps the fear away.

hmmm.

went to register over at one private nursing agency ytd.
it. was. scary.
everything and everything.

so many things in my mind.
too many that i dont even bother to quarrel with baby s.
i came to realise.
i've yet to accomplished lots of thing,
degree, driving license, braces, travel etc.
why get bothered over minor stuffs ?

i didnt get angry over anything ytd at all.
i accompanied him to the watch shop which i normally dont.
i accompanied him to the electronics shop which i normally dont.
i accompanied him to eat at carls jr even i dont like to eat that.
i comment with him abt pretty girls when i normally pinch him.
i smile when he talk abt his ex gf when i normally kick him.

small little minor things.
little big important things.

however,
fear of the unknown.
to tell the truth, i'm very fearful of my new job.
afterall its completely different from my previous work place.

jiayou ah tang,
its time to move on.
get out of your comfort zone,
be prepared to the unknown ahead.

:)