bla bla bla.
so stressssssssssssssssss

anyone for any intro for jobs?
just want a part time job for 3weeks.
will be going hk this end of april.
will find a full time job when i'm back.

dont know why i'm so stress up.
maybe bcos of my mummy.
she keeps asking me to find a job and give her allowance.
aiyo. this mummy is not encouraging at all lo!

maybe bcos of baby see.
he keep calling me "wu ye you ming" now.
idiot.

maybe bcos of baby see's parents.
dont want them to think that i'm slacking around.
or spending baby see money.

hmmm. today' my last day doing the dressing.
feel that there's no need for me to do it.
so i taught the maid and let her do it.

and i dont feel like working for this agency already.
its kinda scary.
fear of the unknown.
my heart will always race when i received a call from them.

happy when i got a call from them bcos i got another $160 to my pocket.
unhappy when i got a call bcos i will feel damn tired n depressed.

happy when i've got no call bcos i can rest.
unhappy when i've got no call bcos it means no money.

how sian is it.
sigh.
stress stress.

helllooo.
long time no see. haha
been working for the past few days.

anyway, to those to doesnt know.
i'm working as a private nurse now.
for parkway.
normally i would go to gleneagles/mount elizabeth.

my working hours are 8am to 8pm.
normally they will either inform me the day/night before, or on the day itself.
so i cant confirm with you when i'm free to go out you see.

but friendsssss, if you wanna date me out,
just try to make it on thurs/fri.
cos i tend to slacken abit towards the weekend.
and its tiring to work for 12hrs everyday.
phew.

and trust me, i'm drained out now.
dont feel like working also !
i even switch my phone to silent mode.
dont wish to receive any call from the agency.

been nursing this datuk for the past few days.
he's the foreign minister of msia la.
but he's a super nice guy la.
so happy that he requested for me to come back.

and doing another part time job in the morning now.
at 630am !
but i get to earn $65 for just doing a dressing.
rich pple just got lots of money to spend.

aiya. means i work from 630 am to 8pm.
super tired.
felt so depressed and low after work.

dont know why
both are super nice patients.
but i'm just tired

tired tired tired.
sians.

hmmm.
i guess i just need a rest after every 2 days of work.
esp nursing such irritating pt.

aiyoyo,
cant stand her.

anyways, meeting nyp pple later.
lol.
like 100years nv see them already !
the last time tt we actually meetup was during angelyn bday,
which was like 2yrs ago ??!!!
gosh.

but will be meeting them for a while.
then will meet baby see.
then home for steamboat !

weeettt :)

work work work.
yawns.

today's case was good.
super nice old ah ma and nice family.
she sleeps most of the time, so i also follow her and sleep !
shiok !

and i always love mount E.
esp their cafeteria.
only 2 dollars, for a drink, rice with dish and soup !
super cheap and nice also.

argh.
but i'm going to nurse another fussy pt tml.
wish me good luck.
hah.

anyways, met up with cuyanie and gracie ytd.
its always nice seeing friends tt you havent seen for long.
esp you dearest friends !
love ya a :)

yawn.

supposed to have a one day job today.
but they cancelled it last min.
sians.
if not it would be quite easy to nurse.
on iv dopamine, heee. easy to ttsh pple.

p.s only ttsh run iv dopamine in general wards.
other hosp will send it to HD.
proud :)

anyway, still jobless.
and useless.
gotta depend on baby see for everything.

and he got me a new netbook !
lenovo idea pad ! mickey one somemore !
heeee.

can finally bring out a laptop now.
:)

ok, cont to emo..

my lovely wallpaper :)

still jobless.

baaaaaa.

trying (very) hard to save money.

yet unable to resist the temptation of lenovo mickey mouse lappy.

going IT fair cm again.

we shall see :)

phew.

told the agency that i wouldnt be able to rest for the next 2 days.
wanted to take a rest & spent some time with baby see also.
with this kinda working hours, i'm only able to meet babysee for a few hrs.

nursed this VIP patient in another suite today.
and his family sucks.
they treat me entirely like a maid !

kns la.

sigh.
i guess rich pple are just not easy to please.

earning money is not easy ah !
and i think i will cry if i ever see 5C staffs on the streets,
i never used to cherish them until i leave the ward & saw the reality of life.

its not easy.

i'm tired.
and unhappy.

after working for the pass few days,
i realised that money doesnt comes by easy.
and i'm becoming more and more thrifty.

in the past, a delipotato set( $10) means nothing to me.
and now, a delifrance fruit tart & drink ($5) seems like alot to me.

i should be able to earn 1K by this week.
but its not easy money.

physically, its not tiring at all.
but mentally, i'm drained.

:(

job was bad.
i totally felt so low at the end of the day.

so what happened to the tangwee who used to work so fast ?
i felt stupid, clumsy and bimbo there.

i felt like a maid too,
however,a highly paid maid.
but there's nth to be happy abt.

i'm a borned workaholic.
i dont like to be a tai tai.

pple are wrong when they say i choose to be with baby see bcos i wanna be a tai tai.
i dont care abt being tai tai.
i hate this life of shaking legs and doing nth at home.

i like the feeling of running around in the ward.
i like the feeling of sweating like mad.
i like the feeling of challenging myself to the max.

i felt good when i finish 101 things in the shortest time.
however, its over.

sigh.

:'(

weird feeling.
getting emo over here.

i promised myself not to be emo again.
but why am i feeling this way.

jiayou ah tang,
pls buck up.

hmmm.
got job offer today.
finally got my uniform.
the uniform that looks like a cleaner uniform.

anw, working tml at gleneagles.
serving a VIP patient.
hmmm. abit scared.
but see how it goes ba.

jiayou ah tang :)

baby t needs to be super understanding in future.
lets work hard for our future.
jiayou :)
maybe a jiayou a day keeps the fear away.

hmmm.

went to register over at one private nursing agency ytd.
it. was. scary.
everything and everything.

so many things in my mind.
too many that i dont even bother to quarrel with baby s.
i came to realise.
i've yet to accomplished lots of thing,
degree, driving license, braces, travel etc.
why get bothered over minor stuffs ?

i didnt get angry over anything ytd at all.
i accompanied him to the watch shop which i normally dont.
i accompanied him to the electronics shop which i normally dont.
i accompanied him to eat at carls jr even i dont like to eat that.
i comment with him abt pretty girls when i normally pinch him.
i smile when he talk abt his ex gf when i normally kick him.

small little minor things.
little big important things.

however,
fear of the unknown.
to tell the truth, i'm very fearful of my new job.
afterall its completely different from my previous work place.

jiayou ah tang,
its time to move on.
get out of your comfort zone,
be prepared to the unknown ahead.

:)