i'm back :)
hahaha

been busy working for the past few days.
haha. seems like i've been saying that in every post.
but this week is really busy working.

i'm working from mon to fri,
10am to 6pm.
will go out after work everyday.
and be super exhausted when i reach home.
thus no time for my mickey :(

been nursing this patient for a week plus already.
and she still requested for me to go back next week.
hahaha happy :)

the only good thing about been a agency nurse is that,
i get more appreciation from my patients.
so far, i already had 3 patients who asked me back.
its nice to know :)

patients in the govt hosp appreciates sometimes.
and definately, it makes me happier.
its the small little " THANK YOU MISSY", followed by a kiss on your hands.
its sweet you know :)

whereas patients in the private sector are more direct.
they write in, buy expensive food for you, request for you again next time.
material satisfaction.

hmmm.

but anyways, i love all my patients.
and i always know i have this TLC.
tender loving care.

i dont care whether my colleague sees it,
or my mummy sees it or baby see.
bcos i know my patient knows it.

anyways anyways.
to this emo girl :

i think i understand you.

there're times when you cant help but think if you should be born here.
there're times when you feel tt death can solve all these problems.
there're days when things get really bad and you just cry alone in the night.
for instance, you felt so tired after a day of work, mummy & daddy reprimanded you when you reached home. all you want is some form of comfort from them, they need not say all these things.

you feel that you're alone.
nobody loves you.
you're not perfect.
you're ugly, fat, stupid !

but thats purely your own thinking.

you had lots of friends, maybe you need a partner.
but imagine if you rush into this, and you get someone really out to hurt you.
what would have happen to you?
guys out there are not like those prince charming you see in your dramas.
just take your time, you still young anyway.

you're not ugly, in fact i think you're prettier than any models out there.
you think they're really pretty?
wait till they removed their makeup.
you look good even without makeup, of cos you will look even better with makeup.
eventually, a man wants a women whom look good every morning when he wakes up.
a woman can't be putting on makeup when she sleeps right.

you're exercising right.
so being fat is not a problem anymore.
just control your diet and exercise.
( use your willpower, never eat at night no matter how hungry you are )

as for your thinking of your parents not loving you.
you're wrong, they loves you.
yes they might love you sibling more.
so what? live your own life then.
dont always do things to prove to them that you're better.
bcos no matter what you do, you're always no.2
just be filial to them and they will understand it someday.


lastly, nobody is perfect.
i think you know that.


done.
although i'm always emo-ing myself.
but i always pick myself up fast.
its your own willpower.
dont ever expect anyone to help you.